sarabear ([info]sarabear) wrote,
@ 2001-11-12 21:41:00
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Current mood:anxious

in the hospital...
wow.

i can't believe i'm actually here. what's more unbelievable is the catheter that i had shoved up inside me for the last 2 days. the doctors have to give you nasty ass chemo before a bone marrow transplant, and apparently the bladder doesn't tolerate the chemo very well. sooo, for the past 2 days i've had more liquid go through my bladder than it would take to was 47 elephants. =P not really... but it sure seemed like it.

disgusting, huh? ;) my catheter is out now, and i'm just waiting for tomorrow. today was my day of "rest" before my stem cells get here tomorrow. i guess i'm kind of nervous, but i know it's going to be anticlimactic. all the nurse will have to do is hang the bag up on my IV pole, plug me in, and infuse away. in a way it's a kind of second birthday though, so i'm still excited.

my hospital room is nice. i've got semi-cable, a vcr, 2 phone lines (so i can be online and talk on the phone at the same time.. yeeehaw), a big ass bathroom, and a comfy bed. i can't really complain... except for the fact that i'm in the hospital and it sucks ass =) all of the nurses are really nice, and most of them are pretty young. we joke around and get along, so yay yay yay. my room needs more decorations though... it's still kinda bare. so far i've got pictures of trent, a rocky horror poster, and hello kitty lights hanging up on the walls. but, if i'm gonna be here for 3 weeks, i've gotta make this place feel like home.

i'm so sick of all of the drugs they have me on... my tummy feels like it's being turned inside out. ugh. i know it will be all over soon, and i'm really trying to keep a more positive outlook on this than the last time i got sick. this will work, and it will allllll be over soon. hooray for german stem cells!!!!!!!!

hehehe

*hugs* for everyone, i miss you all =)

*sara*


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all the best
[info]crowriff
2001-11-12 11:17 pm UTC (link)
I really hope the bone marrow takes and you get well soon Sara. All my best wishes and prayers go out to you for a good transplant and a very speedy recovery. We all miss you and hope to see you soon.

Love,
Patrick

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Hey, Marrowmeister Sara--
[info]savannarama
2001-11-13 12:59 am UTC (link)
Will you send me mail or LJ comment and remind me what # to call and what room you're in and when visitor hours are? Also...ask your doctor if someone who blows her nose about a dozen times a day is a risk. I was done with my cold well over a week ago, have no symptoms, no coughing, but it's so hard to have perspective on a normal wintertime noseblowing? when danger is involved. I could wash and use sanitizer and wear gloves or something... haha, but only if your doctor says that it's already truly innocuous. *squeak*

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Do they empty the garbage too?
[info]lookingatanace
2001-11-13 07:53 am UTC (link)
Aside from being in such a armpit as a hospital, that sounds like you are living the life of a pimp. And even pimps get shanked by them ho's or John's on ocassion. Shit Sara, You are living like a god damn pimp. Al you need is a lime green hat with a huge feather in it and call all your nurses bitches and ho's. I know you have a pager and cell phone. You are living the life of every Franternity boy in the world, except the part about the cancer. Just practice your back hand and don't let then shove things up you vaginia without a couple taps from you. You also have to come up with ubber pimp name, and hello kitty does not qualify!! Something menacing.

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[info]ex_thekiller358
2002-04-01 11:48 pm UTC (link)
I was doing a search for people who are the almost the same as me and share lots of interests, expecting yet another shallow whiny journal i came across you. And you've completly changed my view on cancer and I'm suddenly so happy to have my freedom and do pretty much what ever i like without having to bother with chemo and stuff, you must get this alot but your soo brave. I never really thought about cancer and things before hand but i suppose its completly turned your world upside down. You must be a very strong person because of this.
Wow, do you mind if i add you to my friends list?

My deepest sympathy

Sally

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your comment
[info]celluloid_jam
2002-05-30 08:11 pm UTC (link)
i noticed that you commented somewhat recently on sarabear's journal. sadly, she passed away on december 21st, 2001. her family has set up a memorial page for her at www.sarafayehunt.com if you'd like to see it.

*colleen

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Re: your comment - [info]ex_thekiller358, 2002-05-31 05:17 am UTC
Re: your comment - [info]waitandbleed, 2002-08-05 07:40 am UTC
re: sarabear - [info]saratran, 2003-06-21 05:24 pm UTC
Intrested to know how you are...
[info]rhythmphish
2003-01-21 11:51 am UTC (link)
Hey, my name is Jacob.
I stumbled upon you're journal while looking up like minded folk, you were somewhere in the middle of my list.
I am very intrested to know how you're health is.
I hope all is well, I hope you are in no pain.
I am ot religious, but I will pray to whatever power keeps us rising in the morning.
Blessed be, Jacob

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[info]killmewithhappy
2003-02-28 02:06 am UTC (link)
You will be in our hearts and thoughts forever!

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twist of fate
[info]lord_chain
2003-05-16 03:48 am UTC (link)
i ran across this journal from botcollectors.com and hearing saras story anout leukemia and her struggle with it really touched me. she seemed like such a nice person. i wish i had known her. i wish her friends and family well, and i'm sorry for your loss.

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~HelloKitty~
[info]leggz
2003-05-23 07:04 am UTC (link)
Hello Kitty lights, wooot!
I think you're room needs more of this lil white cat, don't you?
:D Hang in there.
xXx

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how sad..
[info]jemini602
2003-05-27 09:02 am UTC (link)
I would have liked to have met Sara. She was such a trooper. My thoughts go out to her friends and family.

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[info]eastern_star
2003-06-07 05:48 am UTC (link)
Rest in peace Sara.. I'll be always praying for you... may God be with your family and help them.. God bless them..

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[info]rinyu
2003-06-18 10:11 am UTC (link)
tripped over your journal..
so sad..
Rest In Peace Sara.
We will remember you..

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[info]poetpaladin
2003-06-20 12:39 am UTC (link)

Sometimes we are introduced to someone who is no longer with us. We will never know them. And our thoughts turn to the what-ifs and the might-have-beens...

I wish you well on your journey into the next life, Sara.

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[info]xopiateslavex
2003-06-26 12:55 pm UTC (link)
It tells you something when it's been this long since her death, and new people are still stumbling over her existance and taking notice.

All the love in the world to Sara's family. I know she's happy where she is, and can't wait to see you again someday.

<3
***
heathyr wynne martin

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[info]jilpie
2003-07-21 08:18 pm UTC (link)
How very true. Years after she wrote this, I came across this.

I'm so sorry for the loss of her life, may she rest in peace.

<33

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(no subject) - [info]necrotica, 2007-05-08 05:14 am UTC

[info]sejira
2003-09-10 11:20 pm UTC (link)
I've stumbled across this path too late.

And I can only hope to be remembered so graciously.

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[info]monkey_funkel
2003-10-02 08:24 am UTC (link)
?

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[info]acrudolp
2003-10-16 01:00 am UTC (link)
I stumbled across her livejournal on a seemingly innocuous mission to locate a "bellevue blonde" poster. I started reading and within minutes had to know what happened. Someone already said it for me, that the fact that two years later people like myself are stumbling across her livejournal and commenting is a testament to how people live on, even after having leaving the earthly binds of life. My father is a retired oncologist in the Seattle area, and it was his youngest patients that always brought home the severity of the disease for me. I also lost a good friend of mine to colon cancer a year ago, and she was both female and 22, the absolute lowest percentage of colon cancer victims. I just hope everyone out there takes care of their bodies and realizes that whatever we can do within our control to keep ourselves healthy is important because there are so many factors that are entirely out of our ability to control.

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[info]downthemoon
2003-10-20 05:49 pm UTC (link)
I was just looking for Rocky casts in my area and stumbled upon this link off of the VTC site. She sounded like a beautiful person. I wish more people were as brave as she. Not to be cliche', but it sounds like she was in a lot of pain- maybe it's better this way. She won't have to suffer anymore.

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:*(
[info]brandijean
2003-11-06 09:12 pm UTC (link)
I found this too late. I went through Chemotherapy for 6 months, and when I was first reading this I was ready to add you because someone else knew what I was going through exactly, but saddly I was to late. I wish I could have known you. Your personality is amazing, and you keep the faith. It hurts me to know that I survived, and you didn't. We both had faith though. I love you and I don't even know you. May God Bless you still.

You will Now shine like the stars inthe sky.

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[info]aelora_illiea
2003-11-25 08:10 pm UTC (link)
i am yet another one to stumble upon this journal just a little too late. i want to offer my sympathy and my prayers to sara's family and to all of the families that have to go through this. two months ago, we buried my best friend's mom, who died of cancer. she was like my second mom and i understand now how it feels to lose someone you care about that much.
my friends call me sare-bear...and i noticed a few common interests in sara's profile, which is why i chose to check it out. she sounded just awesome.
rest in peace and my thoughts and prayers are with sara's family.
aelora
aka sarah

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Sara :(
[info]taz98027
2003-11-28 04:23 pm UTC (link)
I only knew you for a short time while working at Tower Records (about 6mo)

You were such a cool person.. you introduced me to Rocky Horror.. for that i thank you.. I actually got to see you preform at the theater the first time i went (Yes, I was a rocky *V*irgin when i saw her there)

I cried for a good day when i first found out you had passed from cancer.. since then my mother got breast cancer last year and she's doing very well.. so far.. cancer sucks.. i hope i never have to deal with that again..

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[info]mimmy
2003-11-29 08:17 pm UTC (link)
This speaks volumes...that two years later, people are still replying to her journal. I just happened across it tonight and didn't know her at all. But my heart immediately went to my throat when I realized that she had passed away. She seemed like a really cool and nice person as well. I hope her friends and family are healing more and more each day.

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[info]lord_chain
2003-12-25 01:59 am UTC (link)
Merry Christmas sara.

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2 years, 2 weeks and 4 days later
[info]celluloid_jam
2004-01-08 10:36 pm UTC (link)
I miss you, lady.

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[info]effex0r
2004-01-13 11:22 am UTC (link)
You seemed like a sweetheart <3
Ive lost alot of people in my family to cancer <3
There is no more pain now I am sorry I couldn't have got to know you

<3 Rest in peace sara

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[info]bloodengel
2004-01-30 08:55 pm UTC (link)
i love you sarabear, always.


~chuckiebear.

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