*grrr*
last night i wrote out the longest lj entry i've ever written about my whole vacation to new york. and then... *poof!* it was gone. =( my computer froze and netscape crashed and waaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh. =( =( =( =( =( =( lamelamelamelamelamelamelame.

i'll type it again some other time. maybe. uggggggh.

but, until then, i should update on my week!

it's been pretty good so far... i guess? i got back from new york last monday and was absolutely dead to the world. 2 hours of sleep is not happy! tuesday i went in to the metro on broadway for a job interview/paperwork session with leenie's boss lady nik. she hired me! joy! i started on wednesday... and it was definitely interesting. leenie is right when she says dancers come in and they need shoes *nownownownownownownow!* and they have to be a size 5 and they have to have straps so they won't fall off when they're on the pole. but most of the teeny sizes in the slut shoes are already sold out, so they get angry and desparate and... it's *really* funny to watch. =D

the downside? my feet hurt.

i'm afraid to wear my comfy sketcher tennis shoes cause they're not black or goth or industrial and i will get laughed at. =( but, i work tomorrow, and i think i'm gonna *have* to wear them or my feet will fall off. i don't ever remember being this tired when i was standing for 8 hours at a register at tower records... =(

i think my body is still mad at me from all of the chemo. i mean, even though it's been 4 months since the last of the nasty shit was pumped into my body... you can still look at it like, it's *only* been 4 months and i'm up standing for 8 hours. i'm still so tired =( so, so tired =( i need to start actually taking my 5 or 10 or however long they are break-thingies. ugh. poor mr. feeties.

thursday i had off, and i finally got to spend some time with zane. i mean, i had seen him for an hour here and there since i got back from new york, but that was the first day i got to see him for more than that. i miss him! he went down to his parents house this weekend, and next weekend i'll be busy as fuck. uggggggh.

i miss my boyfriend!!!!!!!!! =( %!#$^%$@#!#$!^$%$@!@#$!@$#^%@#^!#@

cowboy come HOME!!!!!!!!! =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =(

*sigh*

so, he took me out to dinner at red robin on thursday, and then we came back to my house and watched gladiator on HBO cause he had never seen it before. gooooood movie. yum =) then he left, and i was sad =(

i got to see him on his hour lunch break on friday before he left to go home. i would've gone home with him if i wasn't so fucking dead. that, and i had to close, so he wouldn't have been able to leave until 11:45pm... and the drive takes about 4 and 1/2 hours. EW.

so i got to close with leenie and ash, the boy who thinks he's a rockstar. hehehehehe. i was scared cause i was expecting the store to be SUPER busy.. being a friday night and all, broadway is usually packed with weirdos. but, it wasn't! it was dead as fuck! so dead, in fact, that leenie sent ash home an hour early.

closing was okiedokie, except that leenie HAD to go and tell me that the store used to be a morgue.

AHHHHHHHHHHH.

so now whenever i go downstairs to get shoes for people i talk to the spirits and tell them to be nice to me.

evil leenie. =)

andy and chuckiebear came in, and andy surprised me and leenie with roses & fundips! WE LOVE ANDY!!!!!!!!! *and if that wasn't above and beyond the call of duty, me and leenie both had said that we were hungry and wanted chicken strips, so when she and i finally closed the store, andy was sitting outside with 2 jack in the box kids meals with chicken strips!!!!!!!!!!

can i say it again?

WE LOVE ANDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

=D

that brings us to yesterday... right? right. i was tired as fuck, so i stayed at home all day in my pj's until about 7 when i got dressed and headed down to fantasy unlimited to meet my friend rhiannon and her boyfriend michael. rhiannon was performing in the "pornival" fashion show that fantasy unlimited was putting on at the catwalk club, and she said she'd put me on the guest list if i wanted to go. hell yeah =) actually, i was supposed to be *in* the show, but the lady who was running it forgot to call me, so by the time i called to remind her, it had been too late. oh well. =( next time! yepyep.

rhiannon's boyfriend... was... ugh. he thinks he's the shit, and he is SO far away from being the shit, it's not even funny. he was just really cocky, and that pisses me off. blech. he bought this jar of liquid latex, and when we got to the catwalk, he rushed backstage and had this guy put the latex on him who was *supposed* to be helping the people who were IN the show. michael just wanted the liquid latex on so he could walk around outside and look cool or something.

he was lame.

i saw savannah backstage! she had in her freaky light blue storm from the xmen contacts, and when i saw her at first it scared me! but i waved hi, and she waved hi, but she was busy putting on makeup and clothes so i didn't go over and bug her.

while i was waiting for the show to start, i saw veronica across the room, and i started to waddle over to say hi... but she dissappeared and i didn't see her again the rest of the evening. ohwell.

the fashion show itself i thought was kinda lame... mainly cause i had been standing for an hour waiting for the stupid thing to start, my feet were killing me, and when it *did* start, the microphone wasn't working until 10 minutes into the show. there were some cool girls who were dancing with fire, and this guy with these bad-ass stilt thingies on all 4's. it's hard to explain.

so after rhiannon was onstage, i went to go sit down and wait for her... and then. it happened. i *purposely* wore my brown "bellevue" wig (as colleen calls it) so NOBODY there would hit on me! i *so* did not look goth, so i figured i'd be safe. but no, this guy who had been walking around in big-ass stilts (not the cool guy in the show, but another guy) came and sat next to me. he was a steven tyler wannabe, i SWEAR! he had the ratty-ass brown hair, a white headband, skin tight white spandex leggings, and a white tailcoat with no shirt on underneath. NOT TO MENTION... the strap on black dildo with rosary beads hanging off of it.

EWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!

WHY DO THE WEIRDOS HIT ON ME?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

he must've been in his late 30's early 40's, and he almost immediately asked if i had a boyfriend.

ugh.

so of course i said yes and proceeded to talk as much as i could about zane, but the guy handed me his card and told me to call him when i was single. even if it was in 5 years.

EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.

i can't say it enough.

thank god he left me alone.

the rest of the night rhiannon and i sat down talking to a bunch of people that she worked with. i had fun, all in all... it was definitely interesting to hang out with different people. =)

now, i'm home, and i'm even tired-er as fuck.... just waiting for zane to get home =) he just called me! YAY! he said they had an awesome show, but he probably won't get back here til 9 or so =(

i miss him!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok, i've babbled enough... i'll update on my new york trip later. not that any of you will actually read the whole thing, cause it was long as FUCK! but, if you made it through this entry... well, i'd be impressed.

byebye!

*sara*